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PSA Nov. 9th, 2016 @ 08:44 am

Heya.  If anyone who voted for Hillary needs supportive conversation, I'm here.  I can't promise volume of words or immediate response, as I am at work today, but PM me, and I'll send you my phone # (for texting) or email address. 

Love you all.

Follow-up question Oct. 18th, 2016 @ 06:27 pm

Is DreamWidth more of a thing than LJ right now?

Huh. My LJ still exists. Oct. 8th, 2016 @ 05:33 pm

Hi?  I apparently haven't posted in slightly under 3 years, and quite a few posts before that amounted to "I haven't posted in a long time, so here's notification that I'm still alive."

Speaking of which, I am still alive.

I interact with some of the people I used to interact with here on Facebook now, and others I just don't interact with much at all.  I started emailing instead of brief messages online with a few, but the lack of responses was discouraging.

I miss the creativity LJ conversations used to inspire in me.  I don't miss the time I spent staring at backlit screens, my dry eyes and cramped shoulders.  I don't miss feeling miserable every time I caught up because everyone I read had divulged and examined in detail at least one new, awful thing that had happened in their life.  I miss the tangents, finding a new thing to love because someone randomly went off about how cool it was.

I miss this thing, but is it still a thing?

Whee, alive, DW username Feb. 12th, 2012 @ 09:28 am
I exist! And there are many things in my life. I should tell y'all what some of them are, but I have been poking around on the Internet for almost 2 hours now, and there are many other things to do.


I have a DW account, lady_v_tiger. There is absolutely nothing on it yet, and it's been that way for about a month! Go give it access, though, if you're on DW, and maybe there will eventually be things. Eventually I may also make it crosspost here.

Eventually I may post EVER AGAIN. Isn't that exciting? No? You're probably right.

OK byeeeees for now!
Current Mood: oh caffeine haha

Paper LED candle rose lantern Jan. 3rd, 2012 @ 08:33 am
A lantern (finished this morning) I made from paper, glue, and two small pieces of wire to house an LED candle, as displayed on my scenic desk:

All for now. May switch to DW and figure out cross-posting later today, in which case updates might happen.
Current Mood: busy

[0 angst] New pics of the fur children Aug. 14th, 2011 @ 02:07 pm

Kitt, adopted during Heather's absence

We're currently trying to get them used to one another. It's going as well as could be expected.

[0 angst] Quick notes make a little song in the heart Aug. 11th, 2011 @ 12:53 pm
Just passing through right now, but for all those keeping kitty Heather in their hearts, a neighbor far up the street found her and brought her back to us Saturday. She's home, and the vet says she's healthy*.


*According to a preliminary examination. After another 8 weeks we'll take her back for blood tests to make sure she hasn't picked up any of the worst cat-to-cat viruses, but nothing would show in those tests right now if she had been recently infected.

BTW, Sei is a most amazingly wonderful friend and kitty auntie who drove us to the first vet appointment available despite being allergic to her kitty niece. Thank you, Sei, and I'll never ask you to do that again.
Current Mood: busy
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[0 angst] Oily to bed Jul. 11th, 2011 @ 11:19 am
I tried a bath last night using olive oil with a few drops of lavender and rosemary essential oils as soap, something along the lines of ancient Roman practice. Interesting experience -- not only did I feel more comfortable in my own skin afterwards in general (as in, more comfortable than at any point I can recall), but also the areas of eczema on the backs of my arms and legs are much less irritated than usual today. Only downside was that I put too much oil in my hair and had to wash it out with my normal shampoo a little while ago. On the other hand, that in itself provides an interesting comparison, for anywhere my extremely biodegradable mostly-natural shampoo touched is now quite itchy -- as it was definitely not while under the influence of the infused olive oil.

[-1 angst] Pictures! Jul. 4th, 2011 @ 04:26 am
[EDIT: This set also contains pictures of the concert preceding the one as which I've marked it below. (I'm not sure what the three singers call themselves when singing together.) That's what I get for posting at 4:30 in the morning. Hope I didn't offend.]

For about 20 minutes at this Contata, I actually remembered I'd brought a camera and should use it. (Tom Smith concert, featuring judifilksign.)

[+1 angst] Confession of a pretentious metaphor Jun. 29th, 2011 @ 04:24 pm
Forgive me, LJ, for I have lurked. It has been one month since my last blog entry...

So, everything all at once:

Our kitty Heather is on walkabout. She didn't tell us she was going anywhere, so we're very worried. I've put listings on every pet location site I can find, and I've filed a lost pet report at the county shelter and visited approximately every 2 days, which is what one is supposed to do. Sei helped me put up fliers in nearly a mile radius around my house. I need still to send every veterinarian and secondary cat shelter in the local area her picture and description and my phone number, and I need to check at the county shelter again tomorrow, since their site says they've brought in another gray tabby.

My voice class ended today with a little informal recital for just the members of the class, with each other as audience. I think my singing has improved dramatically from just those 3 weeks, but I also think more practice would have improved it more. Of course, more practice would have meant less time searching for the cat, and I do get to keep the music from the class. I'll be in the late summer chorus, too, which, thankfully, starts up after a week's break.

Contata is this coming weekend. I'll be attending, and I'm looking forward to it. I think I need to bring some sort of small knitting or sewing project, though, for the reason that when I go to a concert and hear someone else sing, a little voice in my head says yay, singing! I wanna sing too!, and then of course I can't get up and join them 'cause that would be weird even if I knew their songs. I get a little fidgety. Knitting is quite portable and takes the edge off, though.

I feel as though my mental health is much better lately... as my physical health gets worse, unfortunately.

So. Much. To do around the house. Current project is painting the hand railing on the upper stairs, preceding which I found the basement. Or half of the basement, anyway.

Reading Dresden Files book, er, 11 now? Turn Coat, if that helps. Reading them a little slower now that All The Things are happening all the time.

It is really hot out pretty much all the time. I am just saying.

Also I think I covered all the important things. So now I'll say those Hail LJs and get started on feeling guilty for not blogging for the next month. Amen.
Current Mood: busy

[0 angst] BTW... Jun. 9th, 2011 @ 08:52 am
Did anyone get pictures of Sassafrass or any of its members at Balticon? I spaced on collecting people for a photo outside of the concert (and for obvious reasons couldn't have taken any during the concert).

[0 angst] Balticon Report Jun. 4th, 2011 @ 09:56 am
Before I get into that unproductive cycle of thinking I should post about Balticon and never quite getting to it, I think I'll actually post about Balticon. Bwaha, take that, er... er... procrastination gremlins? my own unconscious?

I didn't get to see and hear as many other people's concerts as I would have liked (not the fault of anyone but myself), though I was glad to catch most of Roberta Rogow's, including a performance of "Woman in the Snow" that left me in tears. Also caught the last song of Glyn Collinson's concert, a cover of Jonathan Coulton's "The Future Soon" with a great voice and acting that I don't know how he pulled off while playing the guitar. Unfortunately didn't make it to maugorn's performances (which I always enjoy when I hear them), though we did have a nice chat in the lobby, each on the way to other things.

We had some things go smoothly and others get a little banged up in open filk. The thing about Sassafrass' being composed of several different regional groups is that when we get together, there are always cool surprises; I hadn't heard tiamat360 and occultatio perform "Threadbare Dragon" together before, but now I want to hear it many times over. I heard that some other things went quite well, though I was in and out of open filk so much that I'm sure I missed a lot by virtue of doing other mostly fun things. (Gaming with non-filker friends Friday, Survivor-flavored Eye of Argon reading Saturday, getting locked out of my room and being generally exhausted Sunday.) We never got to sing "Sapphire, Ruby, and Gold" because something had sounded odd last time, and I didn't get a chance to pull the DC-area group aside and run it, and in general Sunday night was full of tired within the group.

Other filkers were quite awesome at open filk. Roberta led "Hope Eyrie," which I heard for the first time (need to hear more times, OMG), and Rin sang her excellent "Companions" and "Favorite Tiny Cat" (perhaps the only cat song I will ever truly love). There was a song, described as a "meta vampire song," that I would really like to know more about, such as who that was and the real name of the song, for it was very very good.

Our concert was a lot of fun to perform, not to mention very well received. Thanks to everyone who came to hear us, and thank you to everyone I sang with! Both sets of people are excellent. And, as always, music program director gorgeousgary was a joy and an excellent organizer.

In non-filk-related things, I had fun chatting with artisans in the Dealers' Room, picked up some books on slightly-more-authentic Norse tunics and dresses than the four I sewed for last year's concert at Balticon (Thrud made her own, I made the rest), played board games with good friends old and new, and sometimes even slept.

Soooo that is my Balticon report. Glad to have been there, and hoping to go back next year!
Current Mood: happyhappy

[-1 angst] Our cat is brilliant Apr. 25th, 2011 @ 01:13 pm
She made this argument to me today:

1. It is an incredibly gorgeous day out. Hot in the sun, but mild in the shade. There is a moderate breeze, all the birds are out and singing, and only the less obnoxious sorts of insects are about so far. Everything is coming into bloom.

2. You are inside the house. Why are you inside the house, again?

I examined this logic and could find no fault with it whatsoever, hence I am now sitting on a blanket in the shade with my laptop and to-do lists, a pitcher of ice water and plate of lunch, enjoying the day and watching the cat. And I'm in a much better mood than I was half an hour ago.

Good kitty.
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful

[0 angst] Today Apr. 23rd, 2011 @ 11:04 am
Step 1: Do ALL the things.
Step 2: Do some more things.
Current Mood: busy

[0 angst] Fed up with setup Apr. 23rd, 2011 @ 12:51 am
I have a new computer as of today. Dad has my old one, which I cleared of my files and settings earlier today before handing over to him. I haven't finished installing things on the new one. Or gone to bed yet, mainly because this keeps happening:

Me: Aha, I have installed the last program I will install tonight.
Me: ...I wonder if that will trigger any updates to be marked for installation? Let's just check -- there are probably one or two.
Computer: I will now install 1.5 Gigabytes of updates.
Me: Urk. Maybe I'll just leave this running and go to bed...
Computer: I will also sit at 30% installation of this batch UNLESS YOU COME OVER HERE AND CLICK THIS CLICKY BUTTON RIGHT NOW
Me: ...Why are you so meeeeean?
Computer: I'm not mean. I'm progress. Click the button, Zara. Click ALL the buttons.
Me: For great justice?
Computer: No, just the next couple of hours.
Me: ...
Computer: Fine, no more jokes for you. MAKE WITH THE CLICKING.

A new computer is a yay thing. Or at least it will be eventually...
Current Mood: tiredtired

[0 angst] Lost button Apr. 16th, 2011 @ 06:12 am
Is anyone else noticing that the "Previous Page" link that lets you go back and read older LJ entries is missing? Mine seems to have disappeared.

EDIT: As of April 20, it is back.
Current Mood: confusedconfused

[0 angst] Meanderings Apr. 16th, 2011 @ 05:56 am
My yesterday evening was hijacked by the need to do family tech support -- Dad's computer had acquired a really nasty, disgustingly annoying fake program that masked itself as a Windows security feature, told you that you had tons of viruses, and urged you strongly (and frequently) to pay for its full version so you could get rid of the other, nonexistent malware. There was no way I was about to lose to something like that, but it had been a while since I dealt with XP on an old machine, so I was awake until midnight-thirty or so removing it. Still updating security things on the computer now after waking early for no apparent reason.

...which means, btw, that I am running on approximately 4.5 hours of sleep today. XD

Becks' visit (Monday - Wednesday evening) was shiny. We didn't wind up getting out and about much, but it was great to catch up talking in person. I felt a little guilty for being so tired and sore coming off the effects of the Neurontin and thus being less energetic as a hostess than I thought I should be, but it was still fun and relaxing for both of us to hang out.

I've read the first book of Jim Butcher's Dresden Files series now, and I've requested a hold on the second one from my local library. Though definitely a first book with some frustrating rough edges, it was darkly humorous, unassuming, well-built, and never insulting. I finished reading it well before I thought I would, and I want more.

On the other hand, I also picked up one of Simon R. Green's Nightside series at the local Borders during its closing sale, upon the recommendation of a store employee, who claimed that though it was 10th in the series, every book in the series stood alone pretty well, and the series as a whole was well done. Having gotten 75 pages in, I realized that I was 1) incredibly annoyed, and 2) in no way obligated to read more, so I stopped. The protagonist, to put it mildly, is a royal ass. He's so full of dark angst that it drips in shades of purple from every page, making one look around for a moist towelette. He's the only one who can save them all every time, and he knows it. He wears a white trenchcoat because he's the Hero. No, really, I'm serious. There were some clever moments -- a Twin Peaks reference kept me reading on for a while -- but no other character got much face time, and whatsisface kept explaining things in ways that he really shouldn't have that far into a series so that it was obvious the series was meant to sell to the careless peruser, not to be read and enjoyed by devoted fans. Oh, and some moments were just gratuitously grotesque. And, and, and. I could go on, but I'll spare you.
Current Mood: busy

[0 angst] Can't sleep, fun will eat me? Apr. 12th, 2011 @ 04:15 am
- One of my oldest, best friends arrived this afternoon and will be staying here until Wednesday evening. We have already hit the Cheesecake Factory branch nearest and may explore museums tomorrow.

- I got some good, unexpected Sassafrass news this evening. (Will update the comm page in the next few days.)

- There is a relatively complex topic right now in my music theory class! I may actually have to study it!
Current Mood: happyhappy

[0 angst] New instrument! ...Sorta Apr. 3rd, 2011 @ 06:34 pm
Recently my father said I could have the mountain dulcimer he built years ago but never learned to play. Having acquired new strings and a book on how to play in the past week, today I cleaned it up with a little guitar polish, re-strung it, tuned it, and set about figuring out how one goes about playing the thing. This was a bit mystifying and required, in addition to the book, venturing into YouTube territory to get an idea of what it looks like when one plays.

I discovered soon enough that some of the frets were missing; to make sure that, and not some other defect in the construction, was causing many notes to be unplayable, I cut up a wire hanger of approximately the same diameter as the remaining frets, temporarily affixing short pieces of it over the lines where the original frets had been, after which I was able to play most of the notes I should have. (Not all, but I'll get to that.)

In the configuration I'm starting with, which is the one the instruction book starts with, the bass string is tuned to D on the bass clef, and all three other strings are tuned to the A above that D. There is enough space between the strings to press them individually to frets, which causes them to produce different notes when plucked.

Now for the still-not-all-the-notes-there problem. You see, when I check these three A strings, which are very much in tune when played open, against each other on each fret, there are a few frets on which I get different notes -- on which one string gives me the correct pitch, for instance, but the one next to it skips up to the next fret's pitch.

I don't know enough about fretted instruments to be sure, but I suspect the cause of this problem is height variations in the original frets, some of which do not lie at an even distance from the fretboard across their entire width. Maybe each string is touching a different combination of frets when pressed at the problem spots? I can't tell for certain, though I've looked closely at the entire lengths of the strings while pressing down all three strings at each place that produces the wrong pitch.

If I have to have all the frets replaced (or figure out how to replace them myself), so be it, but I'd like to have a better idea of whether that will likely fix the problem first. Can anyone reading this venture a different possible explanation or the contact information of someone to ask?
Current Mood: fascinated

[-2 angst] Higher notes, more filling Mar. 9th, 2011 @ 07:57 pm
Taking a break from singing lower things to play around in my high range a little bit ago, I hit a3 for the first time since that bout of pneumonia I had in, what, 2005?

Of course there are no witnesses. Sigh. x_x But with lots of practice, successful allergy meds, and warmer beverages in general recently, my upper notes are coming back -- I've been able to hit f3 and g3 more and more regularly, though still not all the time.

This is an extremely productive use of my time, for there are lots of songs in Western music that use those notes.

...It just makes me happy, okay? Crawling back under my rock now.
Current Mood: like I'm cool or something
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[0 angst] Recent Mar. 8th, 2011 @ 10:21 pm
Over the last few days I've reinstalled my operating system and, so far, most of my programs. On the one hand, this is a good thing: my computer is once again shutting down correctly, as it hadn't done in a while. On the other, it's bad: I attempted to restore my Outlook archive from a big file I'd saved, only to find that the big file was no longer on the external anywhere I could find it. Not panicking only because the individual e-mails are still on Gmail.

I seem to have acquired a DSi and a copy of 9 Hours, 9 Persons, 9 Doors. Said game has eaten 81% of my brain. Paranoid setting with math puzzles whee! Actually, I woke up this morning and realized I'd been dreaming about solving similar puzzles.

Doing well in my music theory class. It is all starting to make sense in really, er... organic ways? 'Cause there's no other word I can think of to describe how convoluted the evolution-over-time of this system ended up. But it is fun. One of my classmates is trying to convince me to play the clarinet in something he's recording, which would be interesting since I have my clarinet but haven't seriously played it in 10 years. But there is no time pressure, so we'll see.

There are many things around the house. Some of them I have moved from one location to another. Others I need to move. We may eventually have a spare bedroom and a family room that function as such.

I think the herbal tea I've been drinking all evening is actually herbal green tea. Oops. But I got it from a heavenly place called Capital Teas in North Bethesda that sells gourmet loose tea, and it is made from cherry blossoms and roses, and it is excellent. I enjoy it. I should remember to enjoy it in the mornings...

I am working with a book called Taming Your Outer Child, and it is enormously helpful.

I keep breaking out in hives in random places. I suspect, unfortunately, that it is related either to my muscle relaxant or painkiller.

I have painted a hat in nifty ways and will show it online when I have varnished it.

Some mornings I go for walks now!

Hanging out with people is fun.

Need to visit Pennsylvania soon, though need a job rather desperately first. Must make searching more of a priority than it has been lately.

This update has been brought to you by yes I'm pretty sure that was green tea and not herbal.
Current Mood: boing!

[0 angst] another dA update Feb. 28th, 2011 @ 11:13 pm
Widgie First Meeting (Little garden creatures that look like sprigs of leaves)
Mobius Wolf (mobiuswolf's username literally interpreted)
Current Mood: confusulous

[+1 angst] dA updated Feb. 24th, 2011 @ 08:55 pm
Better Than A Canary Anyday (Demon girl with small wings, the rest of it I won't spoil)
Current Mood: accomplished

[+2 angst] Blorp Feb. 24th, 2011 @ 03:03 pm
I have nothing good to say, so here is my adorable cat being adorable.
Current Mood: irritatedirritated
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[+1 angst] I didn't sleep through spring, did I? Feb. 18th, 2011 @ 01:20 pm
It is warmer outside the house than it is inside the house. Inside the heat has shut off because it's not needed.

*checks calendar* Yep, still February.

[+2 angst] Go go February! Feb. 17th, 2011 @ 08:09 pm
By the way, this happens to trees in Maryland in the winter. I've seen multiple ones in the same state of wretchedness recently.

Tried to sketch and watercolor that same scene, but it turned out to be too complex, and now I am cranky that it didn't work out. Bleh.

In other news, I am sorely tempted to dress up and wear lipstick and take pictures of myself so that I can make y'all tell me I'm pretty. Should I do this or attempt slightly more productive things?
Current Mood: crankycranky
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[+2 angst] Rage into the machine Feb. 1st, 2011 @ 02:49 pm
Have spent too much time today trying to liberate some shelves and matching cabinets from piles of stuff in the spare bedroom, meanwhile putting all the stuff in large bags and piling those bags in the corners away from the shelves and matching cabinets.

Must kill. Maim. Destroy.

Or possibly play Castle Age.

Ah, Castle Age. Preventer of the destruction of worlds.
Current Mood: ALL. THE. THINGS.

[+1 angst] If power corrupts, is electricity evil? Jan. 28th, 2011 @ 10:03 am
We have electrical power back now -- of it there was none here from about 8 pm Wednesday to nearly midnight Thursday. It was... a welcome break, from my perspective. Something in me always relaxes when the power goes out, and I start to enjoy slightly simpler things again: reading aloud to my brother, cooking on the gas stove, curling up with small sewing projects. For a while, at least, but it makes me wonder if I'm not really meant for a technologically empowered life.

Anyway, it's back. Into the current times I march again.
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy

[0 angst] Clothesout Jan. 25th, 2011 @ 10:24 am
Okay. So. I have woken up from 2-4 am every night for the last week or so, meaning that the part of my brain that controls verbal expression is pretty much in a constant state of zomb lately. If this update doesn't make sense, let me know.

I no longer work at the fabric store. A situation occurred right before Christmas involving unexpected disclosure of my disability -- not really saying more than that in a public entry other than that I quit shortly after. I'm now looking for another arty-crafty type job because I was good at that one even though things didn't work out.

Well, looking is perhaps not the right word. I have partially filled out a profile on the job search website that the local community college recommends for its students. (I will be taking a class there -- beginner music theory -- this spring.) The paperwork, virtual or real, and the spinning and rewriting make applying for jobs one of my least favorite things ever. Seriously, I spent 3 hours scrubbing soap scum out of my Dad's bathroom's shower to avoid it yesterday.

I've done a lot of cleaning and organizing this past week. The kitchen looks semi-marvelous and functions much better than it did before. Not quite done there, but I was running out of the ability to work on that room, so I moved on to the bathrooms. I'm glad I can think of this as doing really quite strenuous part time work that doesn't happen to be paid, for that's lessening the strain of not having paid work. And I'm glad working hard on the house really does make it more functional, for it needs that and is already starting to run more smoothly.

Of course, there comes a point when one must declare that it is time to wash even one's paint-y, clean-y, stained clothes with the holes in them because they are too disgusting to be worn for more housework, which is why I'm not cleaning more at this moment. Should go check on the washer, though. Bye for now!
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful

[0 angst] Weather or not Jan. 18th, 2011 @ 11:46 am
There was snow/sleet/freezing rain last night in these parts, resulting in unwalkable streets and sidewalks sidefalls. Since I needed to pick up a prescription this morning or *not have an important medication dose today*, Dad dropped me off on his way to work at the shopping center containing the pharmacy. The shopping center also contains a coffee place with wi-fi, which is where I am now. And for the forseeable future, until my street melts or is plowed or salted.

This will be a day of e-mail, computer organization, and brief, not-exceedingly-personal phone calls, I believe. And Internet things. Egad, the Internet things.

EDIT: Roads sufficiently cleared, so I am now home. (Yay!) And planning to stay that way on the grounds that I prefer my skeleton in the same shape, size, and number of pieces as per usual.

Also, note to self: when in good mood, do NOT e-mail Mom. Grah.
Current Mood: oh well
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